In the past year, I have lost 2 cousins, 1 uncle and a VERY close friend.  The only one I got to say good bye to was my uncle.  The 2 cousins died unexpectedly and quickly.  

The problem I'm having is with my friend who passed away.  I didn't find out that he was sick until 5 months after he was in the hospital.  By that time, he was unresponsive and in a coma.  I chose not to go visit him because I didn't want to see him that way.  I wanted to remember him for who he was before he got sick.  I know I made the right choice by not going to see him however, I miss him very much.  There were some "unresolved" issues.  There were things I never got the chance to tell him.  Now I have major regrets about it and I'm trying to figure out how to deal with it.  I know that he is happy where he is now and he doesn't care about what happened in the past but I'm still here and it bothers me.

I'm sorry for all your losses.  
Forgive yourself.  
Then write him a long letter, mail it to him C/0 of the Universe and mail it.  Trust he will get the letter.  
Then just be open to his message in return.

Be gentle with yourself.  

That is very good advice.  Thank You

he knows you still love him and he'll most likely visit you in some dreams on occasion, he doesnt blame you for anything. *huggles*

Lots of Hugs to you.Tourbi and whoselinebaby said right.Your uncle would be always beside you.If you got anything to tell him just send hima message like Tourbi said or by any other means.I am sure you already did it.Hehe.