I feel really down at the moment. I dont know how many heartbreaks do I still have to go through till I find my trou love.. if theres one for me at all?
I met my first love when I was 18. this relationship lasted 5 years, I was never truly happy during all those years but being stupid I held on to it all the same... till he dumped me in a rather hurtful and humiliating way - all of a sudden he got married.

it took me two years to get over the heartache. then this other guy turned up. everything went wonderful and I thought I finally met the man that was truly meant for me, there was just one problem - Im Georgian and he was American, he was a navy corpsman temporarily stationed in my country. we did get very close and when he went back home our relationship continued, he was planning on coming back here and marrying me, he kept telling me he missed me "so much that it hurt" and that he couldnt get me out of his head and his heart. there came a change last october, he suddenly wrote in his blog he was going to be sent to Iraq for 1 year. I tried to talk to him but he avoided me in every possible way, he didnt reply to my emails and messages, he was not picking up the phone when I was calling him, then he finally texted me "its not gonna work" and stopped keeping in touch. then in January I wrote him again, asking him to explain what was wrong. he replyed hi DID MISS ME, but he respected me enough to ask me not to wait on him coz he was in Iraq as he had said and he didnt know when he would ever be able to make it back to Georgia. I told him I was ready to wait. then he disappeared again.

yesterday I went to his myspace page, just to check when he last logged in and what I saw there came as a shock: I learned I was lied to all the way, he never went to Iraq, I found out he cheated on me exactly like my ex did. his relationship status is changed to "married", he has posted photos of his happy family life, and what totally "killed" me - he removed me from his top friends and placed his wifes photo where once was mine LMAOOOO!!! I just dont know what to think. isnt such behaviour a bit ridiculous of a 34 year old man? I cant understand why he had play this cheap game with me instead of simply telling me the truth? if he had no feelings for me anymore, what stopped  him from telling me so? is that so hard to be honest? I swear I would have understood. Im a human being too and I know such things happen. yeah, it would have hurt anyway, but I would appreciate his honesty and I would still respect him as a person, I would even want him as a friend...

what hurts me the most, he knew how my ex had treated me and he had promised me many times he would never do the same to me. well, he did!
I cant even try to start explaining what a disgusting feeling it is being let down by someone you believed was so special. Im very deeply hurt at the moment and I`ve no idea how to trust men again. my friends tell me the problem with me is that I keep going for the wrong type of guys - obviously thats true, but the thing is those wrong guys never seem to be wrong at the begining! my bf was so sweet and kind and caring I would have never imagined he would turn out to be such a shallow liar.

Im sorry I went into so many useless details, theres such a turmoil in my head right now, its very hard for me to concentrate. thanks everyone who took time to read this. your hugs would be so much appreciated :((

Ani,

That's really not fair to you.Well it kinda happened to me too and twice in the past.They are just cowards.Maybe you should learn a lesson from it that "Don't trust anyone so easily and go into a relationship"Wait and learn about the person's true intention first.
I would say big hugs to you and healing as well.With time you will learn to trust again but in a different way.and hope the next one will be the true Love.

oh, Ani.  I'm so sorry for your hurt.  and his cowardice.  I hope you find some peace,  and lots of love.  The kind of love you deserve.
hugs.

Here is a HUGE HHHUUUGGG, positive energy and tons of LOVE to you, Ani.

You are truley a very wonderful, positive person. That's why these negative men did it the way they did. They don't have enough self confidence to be honest.

Feel the pain and grieve. Then look into yourself for what YOU expect out of a relationship. You will always trust people, because that is the loving person you are.

These two were just stepping stones on your path to true love. Take all the good and treasure it, take all the bad and learn from it. But always stay true to yourself. You are the only one who can make you who you are. You have no control over others, so don't try.

I know this, I have been married and divorced 4 times. I am still looking for my true love, but I am in control, not them. I have learned a lot and I take this into my furture with open eyes(not closed) anymore.

Another HUGE HUG to you.

LOts of love, Karlene

Ani heres some *huggles* my love and healing energy going to you.....I do not understand why its always the good people that get hurt and the naughty people run along all happy etc......I dont like liars or cheaters,i can not stand being around people like that....Lucky you found this out sooner rather than later because to spend another year or so with such dishonest people would be a waste of your special love,i feel anyway.......I know everyone says this to you,but you will trust again,when you heal and are ready.....You will find that special man that treats you like you deserve,you will.......These men are just road blocks for you to learn and get stronger.....In time im sure they will learn what they're doing is nasty and playing with peoples hearts is so wrong in many ways........Geez i should really take my own advice :o(

I hope your mood picks up soon and you feel better....Mr Right is out there looking for you aswell and one fine day you will bump into him.......

Heres another *huggle*

Tamara :o)