I don't come onboard often and I never have much to offer so I hardly dare to ask for anything but I am desperate, for which I am ashamed.

I want to be a good person, I want to make people happy, I want to be a joy in people's lives, instead I piss people off because I don't know how to be social.

I have been going on for only 24 years and only the past few have really been a pain. I know how much worse it can be, but I don't really want to sit around and experience that.

I try to accept things, I try to stay positive, then I remember it it impossible to try, either I do or I don't.

All the good advice I've been given, all the hands that meant to help, everything and still.

I think to myself, it's all my own fault, it's not life that's so terrible, it's how I perceive it, it's the way I think about it that makes it so. So I tell myself to think positive, I tell myself to keep going, to relax, to accept and be grateful.

I feel tense and I don't know if the aching is physical or mental stress.

I just don't know what to do anymore because I just don't know what's the matter and on the one hand good news yet on the other not so good at all, the psychiatrist declared me mentally sane, just emotionally under developed for my age. So now what.

I don't know what I'm asking for, a miracle maybe ?

Tanx anyway for allowing me to express this here,

Jasz

Hi Sweetie,

Don't be ashamed, that's why we are here.
Keep up the positive thoghts and looking for what you need to do.

A HUGE HHHUUUGGG, positive energy, and love to you.
Karlene

Take it easy.Don't pressurize yourself by thinking why u did bad.Everyone is allowed to make mistake.Be lenient to yourself.Love yourself is the most important thing.Send positive things.Positive will come back.It's only a learning process.when you have learnt  what is meant it will stop.

the day you will balance your light and dark side you will feel stable.when u suppress your dark side it gets out really bad when unleashed.Balance is the key.



dhav

Awwww erratiqirl83 ... I am also trying hard to be positive . Sometimes I feel very low but I'm not giving up . Please don't be so hard on yourself .

Sending you a huge hug

sweetie here is a huge hug and stay positive and it will be better for u... we are all here for u...u are a wonderful person...much love and huggies