A big Grandpa hug to you and a lots of positive energies are sent you.
You are stating that people are rejecting you.....maybe you can turn it around and see if you are rejecting other?
When we not feel us top, we have a tendency to have our feelers to much out....if we then look for rejection those feelers will find them even if so is not the case.
I recommend that you start to work with yourself...start to love yourself...even with what you feel about your illness.
As long as there is given notice that there is little that can be done with it, well then accept it, even if it is hard to do.
That said, always look for improvements or thing that can help....but concentrate on life itself.
Use meditation...start to feel the inside of yourself...find your spirit...that one is what count...that is the thing that makes you...everything else is just cosmetic appearance....be proud of yourself....if you feel sorry for yourself....look at all those who are worse....who are blind...who haven't legs...who can't talk...who can't hear, there is lot of people who are in much worse condition...and even so..I think they all love life....and if they do...well do the best out of it.
I am aware that it is easier to say then to do....but we need to hear it from time to time....there is no help for you to hear that I feel sorry for you....you will only feel more sorry yourself.....so my post is more a hope to ignite a spark that can change your day
Good luck
