Hug pleeez...!  I got an issue.  My life is super duper difficult.  And I've got a tough husband with a difficult marriage which really is in all our best interests to remain intact.  He's got medical issues too.  After my daughter was born, 16 years ago, my husband started refusing to have sex with me.  He didn't care if I went elsewhere.  I did a bit-- and found, like, one loser a year for a few years... so unsatisfying that I just didn't want to do it again for a long time.  And every time I had to find someone else....  It's been 6 years now that I just don't want to play that game anymore.  Gawd, I'm only 51 and the idea of not having sex the rest of my life is just so depressing.  Add the fact that the two teenagers are banging everyone in town (well, an overexaggeration) but they throw it in my face all the time.  Frankly, I don't want to get near men anymore at all.  The idea nauseates me.

I'm also wondering as a studying solitary Wiccan how that will affect my Wiccan spirituality and energy.  Wicca is all about power from the God and Goddess, as through creation and human sexuality toward procreation.  I just feel that this imposed chastity has sapped me horribly of life.  What say y'all?

hugs to you and light to release you of this mess,

Hey Brightwater, I can't advise you about wiccan stuff but i can say being repressed like that is damaging you in lots of other ways.  I hope it really trully is in your best interests being in your marriage?

I can only give you a large hug and say if you ever want a blether let me know.

Suzi

sweetie here is a huge hug...much love and huggies

Brightwater  HUGE HHHUUUGGGSSS to you. You should have an honest sit down heart-to-heart talk with yourself. Make sure it is in your best INTEREST and not just what's easiest. pm me, I think I can help you.
love and positive energy and more hugs to you. Kar