Hi all,

This is my very first post. I saw this topic and decided to write. I find myself in a place where I recently (over the past 7 - 10 years) have become a freethinker, and politically aware. Looking back on my life I feel I was totally asleep, pretty much following a traditional spiritual path, one I did not even choose, just raised in.  As many here have probably done, I finally researched and learned and chose a different path for myself. On that spiritual front I am much, much happier.

But, as a result of my awakening, I have struggled to deal with the weight of the world and it's problems. I now see so much corruption, injustice, unfairness and sadness that it is sometimes just overwhelming to deal with. I've also been doing serious inner work, learning difficult and painful truths about myself which have been very hard to face head-on.

What saddens me the most is that some people have noticed that I'm not the "happy, carefree" person they used to know - that I have changed and that I worry too much, that I am not as fun to be with, and that I can be a downer. I think that before I was living through the world with rose-colored glasses, but now that they are off I'm much less of a happy person and have really undergone significant personality change.

I guess I am trying to get the best parts of what I and others miss about me back again. I don't want to ever go back to being the blinded but happy person I was, but I want to try to find joy again. It is harder for me now.

Anyway, hugs are always great - and any advice is always appreciated too... thanks all,

Bill

Hi Bill,

   Many hugs to you I'm fairly new to this site as well, so welcome.  Iwas like you about the spiritual path, only with the exception that one grandmother was Native Indian, so she used to do hexes.  But she never taught me anything.  I was like you, it was the traditional spiritual path.  

   I'm glad you were able to find yourself.  Ican tell by your writing that you are truly happy.

Many Hugs

Witchynanna01

Just be yourself Bill..
It will all fall into place soon...
If none can except you then move on word...
You may find you like yourself better then you thought...
Walk along the ocean, a woman will be there looking down with her arms cross,
go ahead and say hi, don't forget to smile after, she's lost also..
A new friend awaits you.. <*Smiles*>

p.s.
It will be on a very cloudy day..

Take note~!!

I read a survey somewhere that said that people are worrying more about the big things ie global warming, terrorism etc than about their own daily lives and that this worry is blighting peoples lives.

Guess what i am saying is you sound like someone that is worrying about things that you can't change.

So i wanted to give you a large hug and urge you to find happiness in all the small things around you.  Ie the smell of rain, snow flakes, your kids, people smiling, your friends.

Take care.

Suzi XXX

I think it all depends on how you feel. If you are happy with were you are then I wouldn't worry about it. But if you think that you are more worry-some than before try meditating. I find that often clears my mind and helps me feel centered