This is my second time here and it's been awhile since my first, but I was hoping that maybe I'll find a friend. I've been going through so much in my life this past year that I feel that I don't have the strength or energy to deal with it  or at least not alone anymore. I don't have any family cause I'm the black sheep, my kids and husband depend on me and friends that only want to be around when times are good which hasn't been very many.I just feel so lost and alone and don't have anywhere or anyone to talk or turn to. Tired of crying inside.      Thankyou to  who takes the time to read this.

here is a huge hug for u sweetie,,, ill send u some positive energy... u have alot of friends here.. we are always here for u.. much love and huggies

hi sweetie herein the forum i go with the name of lluvia,my real name ia sonia,ive had difficultimes to you have to know that the real friends are the one that sticks by you no matter what,so now you know that those that you are saying that are not  there 4 you means not your friends pray to god to show the way n your angels they all listen,i give you my shoulders to cry i will also give you my hands to help you get up,im here 4 you,i know theres a lot of people here that will help you,possitive n good enery to you   hope to here from you soon,(spiritalk,gem,rhutobello,suzisco,ect ect )are some of many people that will help you ok take care,.

The feeling of being alone is gruesome and must be fought or it will consume your energies.
You are doing a good thing in reaching out for a "pen pal" but that is not enough in itself.
You have husband and kids.....it seems to me that it is time for you to put up regular family consultations where you start to discuss how to make the family life more exciting for all.

I am almost sure you are of the type that do all the work at home....the born waitress.....they are every family "best friend" except for theme-self.
It become a habit that mum fix it all.....she just become the one we go to when we have problems or want food. The cloth magic clean itself and each room has a genie that automatic clean up the mess.

If something of this seems to suit your day....well then start to change it....it will be hard in the beginning...but if you want respect from your husband and your kids then it is almost the only way to go.
If you manage to to change this in a slow but steady way...all parts start to think more about each other...and if family meetings are hold once a week (or as often as necessary) you can expand it to family trip to the park...cinema...zoo...you name it.....it's just to get it started so you get out of the bad routine.
Don't start before you have thought it true....make up your "demand" on beforehand....make them not to hard...but be sure they can't move it back to you, if you first give in after doing it...then you will have a harder time to get them to listen to you.

As for black sheep....Don't let pride stop you from taking contact yourself...that kind of pride is in my opinion a curse...many times all parts want a reunion... but all are sitting on the fence hoping the other part shall take the first step.....well some day there are no longer possible to take any step....then our bad conscience start, and for the rest of our life we blame us self for not have tried....a very bad circle.

I really hope you will soon have a change in your life..if you feel this is a place for you...visit us often...interact...there are very many people with big hearts here...and many who need help...and many times you will feel that helping other is the same as helping yourself

Good luck to you and a big Grandpa Hug!

my hug and may you receive my blessing. may it generate a peace in you so that you can gain composure once again to face the world tall and strong and once again full of ambition and drive.