hey twistedwillow
you seem so  sweet heres a big ((((((((((((((HUG)))))))))))))))) for you.
Keep your head up and Im sending Possitive energy your way ..
Gwen

Thankyou so much for the hugs   {{{{{hugs to you all}}}}}
Still crying this morning, but feeling much better, I know I've made the right decision to choose happiness, both my son's and mine, over money at this point in time.

hugs

faline

Stop it.
Stop being there weapon and torturing yourself.
you should know by now that the aproval you are seeking from them is not going to happen.
Dont bother just live your life dont tell them much talk about the weather the happy family moments?dont be dragged down to there standards as you are being you must understand that they have there veiws and you have yours you cant change them they cant change you well not without making you live a life you dont want.
im afraid huni that you have to be the a big girl and let them be them selves,you cant make everybody happy and if you can make yourself you are lucky.so go for it.
i hope that your not planning to do something really life threatening, but if you are it is your choice, be carfull and dont forget that these people are your family no matter wat so you dont have to like them .any how babe heres a big big hug from me and all my crew hope you will be smiling with joy very soon .take care and keep strong many thoughts jojo

Hi jojo, thanks for the hugs, and the stern talking to!
No, I have no plans on doing anything lifethreatening ... nobody can make my kidlets life as miserable as I can  

I have and am taking steps to remove myself from my family... I think mostly I went into shock last night because my best friend did exactly the same thing as my family used to do... which was tell me what to do because she knows best, and was 'cruel to be kind' .

I moved away from my family 5 years ago because I was getting extreme physical reactions from the stress that is them.  I would get huge welts on my body raised up about an inch, pretty disgusting stuff so no more physical details,  I got one the week after I moved away, and i got another a year and a half later when I went home to visit, since then, nothing, though now, 5 years later, just thinking about the possibility of moving back near them sends me into tears and shaking.
Don't get me wrong I love them and I know they love me and mean well, I'm just different to them and for a long time I was their emotional garbage bin, if they had problems with each other they would take it out on me and to me... I guess I just got too full of their emotional waste and havnt purged it yet.

sorry for such a long rambling post.

faline

I am sending you one of my HUGE hugs - hope it helps a little

Brightest Blessings

Sarah