Big ((((((HUG))))))
Even if this is a  generational curse...it can be broken.
It all begins with you...loving ones self is a pretty powerful thing!

Oboy oboy...let us start with some bigggg Grandpa hug to you.

First of all....You are not a failure.....never say it...never write it.....you are a good person (if not you would not have been here and you would not have posted this)
What you need most is to build your self confidence and self respect.
This can only be done by forgiving all those who have done you wrong and forgive yourself, this because you need a new page in your life and can not drag all that crap with you.
I for one respect all who manage to get out of drug habit....it show they have self control...and a big will.

If your paper still say you are married to that guy...file for divorce...if they start to make difficulties...say you will bring out the whole case and that will hurt them a lot.

For your new guy who attacked you...always remember that we humans always are eager to blame miss fortune on other and you might be a good candidate.

Try to figure out who are your really friends and give you positive energies and who do not. Waste those who bring negativity.....you need all positivity you can manage.
Try to start to meditate...start to investigate yourself...start to build those abilities you find is good in you...learn yourself...be confident in yourself.

If you manage this I think you will have a much better life with or whiteout a man at your side, and always remember that positivety attract positive people and give energies...the other only consume you!

Another big Huuuugggg!!

That is excellent advice!!! I am surrounded by negativity.... I keep trying to stay more positive, but it does get really trying at times. I have to agree, getting back self confidence, and self love and respect are key in getting through any hard times. Bless your heart, you have been more than many! Sometimes the hardest thing to do is to believe in yourself, you are already on the right track... You are reaching out! Have faith sweetie!

Hi Marsha,

A very big hug to you... And also a small advice: PLEASE AVOID DRUGS. They would only make u feel more miserable.

Love,
Lilac.

here is a huge hug for u sweetie i hope everything turns out well for u huggies