Hi Everyone,

Thank you all very much for the hugs and advise. I am glad that I finally posted and let everything out. I will do my best to remain positive. I try to when I am around him especially. I haven't fallen really apart in front of him yet. If i get the urge it is usually when he is not around. He is on me all the time about taking care of myself, but there are just not enough hours in the day at the moment. Plus, I am afraid if I slow down that everything will really fall apart or maybe I will completely lose it. I will try and do my best though, I need to stay healthy for us all.  

To everyone who offered healing Reiki engeries, they are more than welcome. Please do send.

Thank you all again.

Leslie

I am sending further HUGE hugs to you, along with Reiki energy - stay strong.

Brightest Blessings

Sarah

Our self-worth as women should not be tied up in a man, why afterall, they are "Just Deserts"(...you must get this book, it helped me so much when I needed direction)...also I read Marianne Williamson's book "A Woman's Worth"...that pretty much set me on the right path from then on out and I've been kicking some male butt lovingly and joyfully ever since....you can be strong you just have to stop beating yourself up like I used to do...I used to cry and fall apart and all the while that man of mine just looked at me as being a weak pathetic little creature and he used to get a kick out of seeing me fall apart in front of him...well let me tell you mister jerk who never really deserved my company in the first place, I'll show you who's weak...and that's the attitude I took when dealing with the male species...I'm not a male basher or anything like that but I can hold my own now because I have a belief in myself and I had to SLOW DOWN long enough to gain my strength and ask for God's intervention in my life...and once I did that, he positioned the right people at the right time and set up the right circumstances for me to move ahead in my life, but I had to slow down and take a "mental health break" and regain my composure and focus on prayer and meditation to center my self so that I could bring all the blessings to me as God would have it in my life....you can have this too...and as a girlfriend once told me...."If men are like buses, how do I catch one?...well you catch one by honoring all that God says and does...let him choose the man, let him fix the circumstances, let him do the guiding, let him take charge of your life, let him make all the right moves...all you have to do is ASK,SEEK,KNOCK on the door of his heart....and just sit back and know that..................God's Got It!!!!!!!!! I will keep you in my prayers.

here is a huge hug for u sweetie