I will give you a Bear big hug too....but at the same time give you my experience of "stimuli"

A stimuli work as stimuli only if you "don't" use it or if you do it seldom.
If you use a stimuli in order to relax you soon will notice that the effect decrease, you have to take it more often, but you will never experience the same feeling as your first.
Since your "mind" crave for this feeling, your normal life start to be more miserable and you look forward to the next time you can "relax".
Or shall we use the real term for it "fool yourself", I have been there, for some year I fooled myself to think that stimuli could save my life.
Lucky for me...I woke up...saw the madness....and I will say my life have been much better after this event then under.

Another thing you shall bring into mind is. You are young...to use stimuli are seen upon as an negative act...by using it you will prevent positive people to be attracted to you, but on the other hand your acquaintances will be more and more of the negative characters, those who always find an excuse to blame all other humans for their miserable life.

You is the one who are responsible for yourself, use meditation and the spiritual life as stimuli and I am sure your life will be far better in the long run!

sweetie i know what u are going thru i love someone but they dont love me back the same way. and it hurts alot but i learn to get thru it day by day. and u will get thru also. im here for u if u ever need to talk. stay positive and sweet. hugs

Cheers for the replys all...i havent been back to view this page coz I didnt really wanna know that there are  people out there who wanna help and are going through the same stresses in life...another reason is because I feel like my problems are only small in comparison to whats happening out there...( heh i laugh when i say 'out there' sounds like something from the "Outta Limits")

Rhutobello, thanks for your comments on stimuli...I can understand where your coming from...thanks for caring enough to write it...I smoke weed like uncle Bob, to get closer to that other level, i meditate when im high, thats the only way I know how to connect with my inner being... Ive got mercury in aries...smoking helps the messenger slow down...take note, look around and observe but with Love...

ya feel me...

Peace everyone and I hope allz having a great weekend....Tara peace n love to you too

Hello there, I am glad you came and talked to us, a problem shared is a problem halved.  So a hug from me and some warm wishes.  Come back and talk any time.

Suzi