| Betrayed wrote: |
| Wait... 1+1 IS 2... I mean, I keep getting stuff saying that I have intuition or something... Err... doesn't really apply... I could be having it but maybe I don't realise it... I COULD be denial... |
how do you "just" know and feel certain things should be this way or that? like for example you never meet a relative Mr. X and you have only heard about ... one day Mr. X shows up at the door and you "just" know it is that it him. how? or maybe you are faced with a problem of say... umm... posting your handwriting without having a scanner... you were able to "deduce" that you could do it by using your digicam. how many people would have thaught of a over coming this problem the way you did? and that includes me. i would have never thaught to just click something if i cant scan it.
and that according to me is making 11 not 2.
| Betrayed wrote: |
| As of idealism, sure... I daydream too much XD... very very unrealistic stuff.... and the rest is a secret... |
sure its a secret but a persons handwriting can say a lot more than you expect... but my lips are sealed.
| Betrayed wrote: |
| I hold back alot. If I had to describe my mental state in one word it'll be 'insecure'... I have the tendency to avoid alot of things esspecially if they tend to hurt me physically and mentally... I frequently need reassurance... |
that can be attributed your you age rather than anything critical. most of have these insecurity at the age. there not much to make out of it at this point. maybe, just maybeyou feel it in such a pronouned manner becuase of other stuff i have pointed out. its like you feel you "not" normal and or not an "insider", even among your closest fmaily and friend. trust me, people only think of you as you preceive yourself to be. so stop thinking of yourself a weirdo and people will stop thinking it too. think you are a werido and people will automatically think that you are weiredo.
you get that i mean?
| Betrayed wrote: |
| Yeah, about not doing what I should.... I keep breaking promises to myself... I make plans for myself but everything ends up delayed... -_- argh... Guess that's a really bad point..... I don't really plan to correct it though... I'll probably live the rest of my life like this... *nervous laugh*.... life is imperfect... Good to have some bad points... XD.... |
god helps them of help themselves. if you wanna escape from sensitive issues... be my guest. but one day they will be your reason for downfall (god forbid it ever happens).
i'll tell one very valuable lesson i learned as a young man who had just started his careerer. At that point of time since i was pennyless and only knew a bit pc and internet... i got into a business venture with one of my elder brother's friend - a partership. who i convinced to invest in me and my ideas. well, he did. and everything was moving along smoothly.
now one fine day this problem with a client creeps up and he calls saying such and such is the problem and i would like a solution for it. now to solve this problem i had to make a long distance call. and at that point of time ... long distance calls used to be very very expensive. and my prtner had gone out of town forsomething. and i didnt want to make the call 1) becuase i was broke and pennyless 2) i was simply trying to avoide the problem.
In the mean while this client of mine kept calling me at first i made several excuses why his problem was not getting solved... and then after a couple fo days, i simply stopped answering his phone... telling people in my office that if he called to tell him i was out of town etc.
Now this partner of mine comes back and and i tell him that this and this happened and that wince i was not sure if i should make the call was waiting for you to come before i could make the call. he simply tells me... well if there is a problem and the only way to solve it is by making this call ... what could i said expect make the call... so i told him i dont have money to make the call. and he shoots back saying that if a calculate or income and expenes we are still goin in a loss and i have invested more than i promised. so i cant give you any money... what would you say to that and now how will you solve the problem becuase if you dont get it solved the you will loose the client? i thaught and said i would have asked the nearby asked the near-my-home-phone booth owner to give me credit for a few days and make the call. and bingo... he say what stopped you form doin that before... and now i really ill not pay for it or neither will our company... you have to foot the bill from your own pocket becuase you tried to avoid the problem by making excuses. you can pay the phone-booth-owner when you get you cut.
I could not afford to loose both my partners investment in the company or this client so i finally made this call and asked for a credit from the phone guy to make the call.
Moral of the story: you try to avoid something and you have to pay more than before. go face it and usually stops bothering you.
| Betrayed wrote: |
| Desires... ok... I'll have to admit that.... My annoying psychologist said about the same thing about me.... Stuff like I don't care about anything, I like dark but I want love and light that kinda thing... -_- ... what an annoying guy, but he's right though.... |
hahaha i hope i am not annoying you with the facts like your shrink.
about that love thing... it more like you wear your heart on your sleves and keep throwing it whoever or whatever that happens to catch you fancy... like if you just walked past this guy in the mall who is handsome and you suddenly are in love with him and wanna be with him. and then the next minute you are in love with another guy.
| Betrayed wrote: |
| I'm not really sure about the fixed opinion thing... I keep changimg my mind on stuff... I have this thing about turning hate to love as well... whatever it is... |
i dont know but from seeing your handwriting i would differ. its like you have a set pattern of belief and doing things. and only you decide when its ok to change the rules. and thats whenever you fancy... but you are generally very rigid.
XD
Abhishek