Hi m8 nice to have someone here to relate to. I know how it is to seem like a normal person BUT you realy are nutcase,whackjob,nutball, wako(it think i got caryed away) ...........The first thing they say is hello , the next you seem so normal BUT........There is a correlation betwen IQ and Insanity.
Here you will find answers i'm sure of it. Religion is about understanding something.You are trying to understand youself.

that we are different, does not identify as mental aberation or illness.  Being yourself is one of the hardest challenges to living that each of us faces...day by day.  Allowing your own growth in its own time is also difficult when you feel 'different' from others.  In the final analysis, only you can be responsible for you...just as each has the same right.

ya i guess thats true.. we need to reognize that we r different and come to terms with it:) but how do u adapt to people?

Dear Mourning,
You are not crazy , just different than others as I am and so many others on this board. I go through the same feelings as you, the feeling different than others, not comfortable around people, and yes, the pain of losing your children because of being misunderstood, i have been there too. I will not go into it, as it is too painful for me, but I know how it tears your soul apart and rips the heart right out of you. My heart goes out to you and I know your pain.
 You are on the road to self-discovery my dear, the road of the spiritual path.I won't lie to you, it can be painful at times, but it can also be wonderful!
 One thing I have noticed through my life is how certain events would lead one into another. Every experience we go through prepares us to do his work. Everything creates a better understanding of another he sends into our lives, like a chain link fence, it grows longer and longer as we gain understanding and skills to help others. Let me give you an example: For years I tried to get a job in nursing homes to help others and noone would train me. Finally, at the age of 38, I got hired and recieved the training I needed to become certified. All because I had watched er on tv and knew the vital signs. I loved my job and taking care of people but six years later, I burned out. Being a sensitive as I am I couldn't handle picking up from everybody anymore, their vibrations felt like arrows hitting me, i'm sure you have gone thru this too! Anyway, to make a long story short, I met my boyfriend, warren online. He was honest and told me he had primary progressive multiple sclerosis, and was looking for someone to love and to take care of him! Of course, I was the perfect person to do this because I have had six years of training and knew about equiptment that would help him, how to work with doctors and nurses, and how to keep him independent for as long as possible. Also, all the other things i had learned. We have been together for two years now,he can't walk or feed  himself anymore, but we love each otherand are both very happy. My point is look
at where life has led you and all the experiences you've had to bring you where you are today. There is a reason for everything. You will see! I am here for you If you need help or need to talk, let me know! Samantha