First this is going to be looooong post – so forgive my grammatical error, spelling typos and above all for boring you all with my... well as I said... my looooong endless post
I mean no offense - but i think we all are living fools - and if you think you are not then think again
Well, 6 am in the morning and after long hard night of work... i just went into the bedroom to note down an idea I got in my "idea pad" and the kittens followed me into the room jumping and running just to reach the room before me -- why?
because its a routine the kittens and me have developed over a period of that i always give them some food before going to bed (normally between 12 to 2 am at night) and right after i visit the bathroom when i get up in the morning... and no matter what they have had to eat or have not had and irrespective of their tummy is full or not they will come and at least have a bite or two from my hands.
Today i realized that i have not been able to go to bed before 6 or 7am in the morning for the past few days and hence have not been feeding them on time they are used to... why?
because i have been to so very engrossed in work that I simply had not thought about them or of our routine.
You know, when they are ill or not behaving as they normally do... everyone gets worried and hope that its nothing and they will ok or rush them to our family vet and we trip over each other just to see and ensure they are hail and hearty...
And when they are hail and hearty -- its so easy to over look them or pay attention to them. all of us at one point of time or another have gotten sooo engrossed in doing what we are doing and/or just trying to make a living and the two ends meet that we forget the "simple bare necessities" of life.
and when we forget these "simple bare necessities" we essentially forget the difference between “Need” and “Want”...
As some of you must know my elder brother past away about 10 months ago... but you know what? we hardly ever spoke to each other. when i was a child he (and the rest of the family) considered me good for nothing (which i was in a way -- i mean i broke every rule in the book and i challenged every convention) .. when we grew up the tables turned and i was the good buy because i was doing well and had established business and he was almost always struggling and changing one job to another... sometimes doing good and sometimes bad and there just wasn't any stability in his life. and then we got himself a job and stuck to it and started doing pretty well... even thou he felt we had "outgrown" the position he was in and needed a change. he stuck to the job and he did it only to show everyone that he can also hold on to a job if he wanted to.
Well, somewhere along the path we got so busy we just didn't have time for what the other was doing... we talked every now and the but it was mostly about work and the conversations normally ended in less than 2 minutes. he was my role model when i was young and i don't know why but i have this feeling that i became his role model when we grew up (like i said the tables turned good became the bad and the bad became the good -- at least in the eyes of other people and the world and the society and this society that we all live in mostly measures "doing well" as in doing materialistically well). Almost every assumes having a family is natural, yes it is but you just dont become family by blood but by what you share between each other and that why we say friends and family. Friends become family and family is meant to be friends. But I wish things were that simple.
When we grew up and took our own roads... like I was said my brother and me grew apart over time and later even thou we talked every now and then we didnt have anything to say to each other. I remember when we were young and even thou shared the same room there ware times we both communicated with each other by writing letters, it was the only way we could speak our minds when it really became important too speak up. What no really saw and maybe even my brother and me did see our relationship did not need lot of words. What the family never saw and probably still does not realize and maybe even my brother and me did not realize (except now and with the benefit of a hindsight and months to think about) how much we helped each other in hundreds of different ways without saying any words (and i mean this literally.. like i said we hardly spoke and when we did we over conversation ended before it started - in less than two minutes - and normally in that 2 minutes most people wouldnt even be able to finish with the hello and hi or whatever greetings). but like i said we always silently there for each other.
I remember this thing right now (and it brings tears to my eye thing of it - and its a memory i will cherish forever)... i remember there was this one time when we was closing down his business and all he had was debts and his friend convinced him to come to me and ask for help. and there was only one thing i told -- "money is no objective (and it wasnt at that time) i'll give you whatever it takes to do whatever you want but you'll have to go on a really loooong fully-sponsored-no-expenses-spared-holiday - call it a sabbatical or mid-life thinking break" and when you come back you should not only be ready and know what you want to do but also should have made up your mind that you will not change work/job/business for any reason what-so-ever for the next 5 - 7 years and like when i was kid and you sent me to your friend to work with him in his factory to learn, you did so at your own risk and you put your reputation on the line (specially knowing that i dont give a damn about convention and break every rule in the book and hence sending me any other place could hurt your reputation very badly) and when your friend gave me that job, he gave me that job because i am your brother not because of who i am or what i am. Now i am giving you that same chance - you taught me well - i will do whatever it takes to see you doing well again and like you said i am doing this at my own risk and anywhere you go with my reference people will see who sent him and my reputation (which i built with years after being called a black sheep all my life) and not who you are, they will accept you at face value because i ask them to and they trust me. i am only putting this holiday and stick-to-job condition because you taught me well and above all because deep down know one knows me or you better than each other and at times whats best for each other.
HOW LIFE GOES A FULL CIRCLE ==> three years later tables turns again --- this time i am in trouble and he says do what you want i am there behind you no-matter-what-it-takes -- money or otherwise.
A year and half later he past away (last november) and like i said before and like most people we both were also so busy trying to pay the bill at the end of the month that we grew apart and hardly ever gave much thought to things like closeness and talking and keeping in touch and visiting... but i can very confidently say we stood behind each other without asking questions almost every time the world gave up on us. And now that is not around any more... his memories have made this nagging habit of creeping in my thoughts, and I have noticed how his name comes up in conversations – he did that or he did this – he said that or he said this - I talk about him now than I ever did before and he wont even let me sleep... he manages to pop himself right in the middle of my dreams too.
i can hardly remember a day that has gone by that i have not taught about him in one way or another. in retrospect i wish things were a little different between us... but the cruel truth is the world is an ideal place to live in.
the moral == don't get so caught up in the "real world" that you forget to nourish your colorful garden of friends and family until after they are dead. No, I have no regrets of not being closer to my brother, we just didn't jell together and that is the honest truth. But yes, we shared a mutual respect and from a piratical point of view we taught each many things and at one point or another we were each others role model.
Now back to where i started - I'll start by promising to feed and keep the routine that the kittens and me have developed and I will not let this making-a-living-in-this-dog-eat-dog-world get in between the kittens and me.
Its never to late to make a new start -- tell me where do you want make a start?
And if you think it to late or ever want to give up I VERY HIGHLY RECOMMEND == > whatching this video
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4m3xzJeJlh0 and visit Nick Vujicic official website ==> at
www.LifeWithOutLimbs.org
and remember what the Jungle Book theme song "The Bare Necessities"
Look for the bare necessities
The simple bare necessities
Forget about your worries and your strife
I mean the bare necessities
Old Mother Nature's recipes
That brings the bare necessities of life
Wherever I wander, wherever I roam
I couldn't be fonder of my big home
The bees are buzzin' in the tree
To make some honey just for me
When you look under the rocks and plants
And take a glance at the fancy ants
Then maybe try a few
The bare necessities of life will come to you
They'll come to you!
Look for the bare necessities
The simple bare necessities
Forget about your worries and your strife
I mean the bare necessities
That's why a bear can rest at ease
With just the bare necessities of life
Now when you pick a pawpaw
Or a prickly pear
And you prick a raw paw
Next time beware
Don't pick the prickly pear by the paw
When you pick a pear
Try to use the claw
But you don't need to use the claw
When you pick a pear of the big pawpaw
Have I given you a clue ?
The bare necessities of life will come to you
They'll come to you!
So just try and relax, yeah cool it
Fall apart in my backyard
'Cause let me tell you something little britches
If you act like that bee acts, uh uh
You're working too hard
And don't spend your time lookin' around
For something you want that can't be found
When you find out you can live without it
And go along not thinkin' about it
I'll tell you something true
The bare necessities of life will come to you
AaANNNNDDDDDDD ONCE AGAIN
And if you think it to late or ever want to give up I VERY HIGHLY RECOMMEND == > whatching this video
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4m3xzJeJlh0 and visit Nick Vujicic offical website ==> at
www.LifeWithOutLimbs.org
like the subject line says -- aren't we all not living fools? stop being one. tell me where do you want make a start?