Why nothingness. That's a good question.

I guess it's because I find nothingness to be soothing and uplifting.

"Nothingness" is something I think of as a white abyss, as death, as some point in the back of your mind where everything's quiet. Its a light and a darkness that envelops you. You no longer think, you no longer sense. There's nothing around you, nothing to question, nothing to fear. Everything's quiet, eerily peaceful. You're floating, separated from your body, mind, and soul -- everything. You don't know who you are or what is or even that there is.

I can imagine being God in this nothingness and the thought is sheer exhilaration. There is no established medium saying you can't do it this way, you just go for it. You create everything that ever was all over again and even some things that were never created. You are born again and you can make yourself super strong and super smart and super pretty. You define existence. That's everything.

I had a dream and it shaped my mind to think like this. I only know the gist of it because it was so long ago. There were some aliens about to invade the planet and a bunch of us teenagers went into a dome and tried to organize a resistance. In one of the rooms there was a box, and an old woman standing by the box. I don't remember quite how, but I watched this woman put her mind and her body and soul into it. Then I did the same thing with my body and then my mind but I didn't put my soul in it and that sucked my mind and body out of the box. And in the dream I was this close to discovering what death was like.

I'm not saying that's what death is like, in fact I don't believe that's what the dream was about, but the dream did shape my mind to think of this white floating paradise that could only be described as nothingness, this box that would hold my mind, body, and soul and allow me to feel peace (which is all I wanted at the time, now I want to be happy).

1ST WISH TO HAVE ANOTHER HEALTHY BABY.2ND GOOD HEALTH FOR MY DAUGHTER,HUSBAND AND MYSELF.3RD LIVE LIFE TO THE FULLEST AND A MEANINGFUL ONE I DONOT WANT TO DRIFT THROUGH LIFE I WISH IT TO BE FULFILLING ...

My 3 wishes :

1. To find the perfect job and be happy with it.
2. To be in good health.
3. To live in harmony with everyone around me.

1. Peace & Unconditional Love on Earth between every human being.

2. Wellbeing of everyone.

3. Everyone should be content with their life & everything in their life.