Oh, sweetie I'm so sorry for your loss. my heart goes out to u. you are forever the trooper wishing ppl well in your hour of darkness. i feel your sadness and pain coming through so strong. and i have no words of comfort to offer. don't think there are any. yes, it's nice to know she is at peace, and has gone home. but it's still a loss and all the words in the world won't make it anything other than what it is. i know you will be together again, someday. and going through this process is something nobody can do with you, but I'm here for you, always.
my heart is breaking for you.
you are an inspiration to me. you have so much grace and dignity, you amaze me. i won't say it's going to be alright. (thou in time it will get easier) i hate when ppl tell me that it's going to be alright when your dealing with something like this, i just want to smack them in the head!!

i know your much more gracious than i, so you would never dream of it. so I'll come do it for you! just say the word sister, and I'll get my bat.
you know that I'm not good at saying the right things, especially now. all i know how to do is try to make you smile, even for a moment. i may be bad at finding the right words, and your probably saying "she's so inappropriate" and as much as that's true, is as much as I'm committed to helping you through this. you are my friend, Nicole. I'll always be here for you, that you can count on. if you need anything don't hesitate. your family is in my prayers.
take care,
love,
Joe'd (blackcat)