If I was you I would start with spiritalks interpretion.
From your time on the board we have got the understanding that something sad have happen to you.
It will be very hard for you to move on in life, if you go around and nursing this expirence.
We all know that we have no way to go back in time....things that have happen can never be undone....so when you go around thinking of it..if it is bad..then you only destroy your own feelings....and you destroy your connection to your nearest....just because your own mood always will be transfered to those you are with.
I think you are on the right way in letting it go, and the interpretion tells you to speed it up....start to live agein...lots of happines to recive....but not if your mood is dark
Good luck Samson
