I have not been online on the site properly from almost 10 Days, because most of the time I have either been travelling (very near distcances max upto 75 Kms away from my city) for many reasons like work, legal matters, some extended families issues & one unavoidable social function. But during all these travelling time, I couldn't just think about my work or even work on the way. I did think a lot about loads of issues & even got to read a few new readings (Astro & Tarot) of mine, I have to say they were good.

But what I read & later thought a lot about after reading these readings where mainly about LOVE. The words reapeated many many times In those reports were Love, Friendship, Divine Love & Unconditional Love.

Well as many ppl know, we Aquarians are famous for making friends about almost anyone & fighting for them always. & Yes I have done that.

But Love, that is something I am not sure about. Well it is true that "I Love everybody....in some or the otherway" But still the concept of Love is strange & kinda alien to me. I do love ppl, I Love my parents, I love my sister, I love two friends of mine like they are my own Brothers, I love my niece & nephew, I love my cousins, I love my Laptop (even if it dies out on me daily), I love this Site, i Love loads of stuff.  

But Still it is alien to me. Can someone tell me why it might be so??

I searched in many book's & even Googled for Love, Divine Love, Unconditional Love. But still have no proper answer to anything.

Why is it Difficult to find the proper meaning of a single Word, which is used goddamn knows atleast 200 million times a day, felt by 2 billion ppl in the world daily, & god knows how many Billion's in the past thousands of years. But it is still difficult to find a meaning for it??

I was going through a magazine called the Week, which most Indian's would know of, & I read an article by a person who was blasting Dan Brown, & talking about Divine Love, Agape Love & Carnal Love. Well he confused me more than necessary. Why even Wikipedia, or any dictionary or Encyclopedia doesn't have all these words in them.

What is all this, can someone tell me. What is so speical about Love & what is Unconditional Love & Divine Love.

The reason is, my reading said "I wanted Divine & Unconditional Love. I have never got Unconditional Love till today, not even from parents & I wanted it very badly. I have to learn to Love myself, & I will love other's Uncoditinally". Now I atleast want to Know what I really missed so that atleast I don't make that mistake.

I want to Love ppl around me, in such a way that they should never forget me if If I drop dead the nect moment. I want to fill their Life, their soul with so much Love that it will Carry on them for as many re-incarnations as they have, even if they don't their soul (spirit) should have my love with them for ever. & I don't care who it is, I want to love everyone, My parents, my sisiter, my cousins, my nephew & niece (from a cousin) &(even the future one's), my friends, the girl who I like a lot but don't know if she likes me. No I want to love the entire world, I want to make the entire world happy & I want them to love one another, live together peacefully, forget wars & battles, stop fighting on petty issues like religion, gender, race or material things, even water & oil.

But I don't know If I can do it, without knowing what it is. Can someone help me. This site has so many ppl who are gifted, who have the expierence, who know the world out there. I am afterall a 22 year old kid, who ppl think is too mature. I am a guy, who has no idea or any recollection of memory about Love, who can say a lot of good or important stuff, but end up saying it either the wrong way or the rude way.

& I think I am just speaking non-stop, I will shut ip now. But I do request anyone & everyone who can to Differentiate & Exaplain this to me. I am just going crazy. Ok I will shut up now, & go home moping like a kid I am, & hope that someone here can help me out.

hi there,
so u a r a 22 year old KID again:) i remember once u had told me u r not a kid anymore..when i used to treat u like one. but i must say u dont speak like a kid at all.
u know what.... sometimes u just cant define certain things.. and love is one of them. i understand what u mean by alien. i feel the same myself.i may love a lot of people... but i see myself at a certain distance frm them..not physically but mentally.  there is always that aloof kind of feeling. what ever made u think that u could google and find out the meaning of love???
this is life:))
swetha

I honestly have no idea what made me google Love. It is just that I am just kinda, mentally & emotionally insecure & vulnerable right now, & I am confused. I know if morton reads this post he will kill me, he had told me that if I am confused, I will reamain so & I should try to clear up my confusion, but it is easier said than done.

I am feeling a lot of pressure on me right now, & don't know what to do. & yes I am not a kid, but still am one in many ways. I am working, while my peers are still studying in colleges, my parents expect me to earn & prove my self, while most of my peers have atleast 1 more year time to enjoy, kids younger than me have found Love (or whatever it is) & I am 22 & like a girl but have no ^%&*%^&% guts to ask her about it. If she says no, I will feel bad but would still like to remain my friend, & will feel even worse if she doesn't want to remain as my friend. & if she does say yes, I don't know what I will do. I can think of a million things to say I am not good for her, but don't want her to hate me. She is a very good girl & I think she deserves much better than me. I don't know what to do, my friend told me to tell her what I feel & finish moping around, & if I don't tell her, it is like cheating her. I am screwed, & have no idea what to do. I am rambling again. Bye, catch u soon.

I read what you wrote ..some of it then it all went blured...

I wont call you a kid because at your age I had 2 children purchased my first car and my first home!  

I will say this .. you dont understand love because you have not reached that maturity level in your life.

Am i saying you are imature >>>NO  I am saying about love you are not matured yet.

Could it be someone has not entered in your life to let you go to the next level of love .. this could be it.

but when one loves so pure so unconditionally .........then you will know true love.

define love -
ask a child ... and you will hear
love is when someone is kind
love is  when you are warm in your heart
love is when you want to give lots of hugs and hold on forever

I like those definitions best....

its something within you when it finds ya watch out you wont know why you are sitting on  your a$$ wondering what hit ya... Thats Love!