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')I say that tongue in cheek. I really admire what you must be trying to do and everything you must be going through.
I am in a similiar situation. Feeling like my head is barely above water. That is why I figure Feng Sh couldn't hurt but will probably help - a lot.
My suggestion is one that I take seriously to heart for my self.
TAKE ONLY ONE ISSUE PER MONTH!
Focus on one thing at a time!
And don't neglect your health because really that is the most important element.
Wish you much blessings and luck.
I really admire your spirit in never giving up - always going forward!