Since you have a free will, which you have stated yourself with the statement :" Kindly tell me how I think", I think none can predict how you will act true life.
You are thinking by your own free will, by picture a situation(or see) your mind goes into work, you are evaluating the situation, you are acting by how you mind see this situation.
If you are a "scared" type, then you are acting different from a "brave" type, if you are an "educated" type, then you are acting different from an ignorant one. If you know something beforehand, then you are acting different from first experience.
Your aim in life "SHOULD" not be for other to tell how you should think or act, but to to make the best out of life according to your interest, your abilities, your possibilities in the place where you live, or if you want to move, what you can achieve there, it is up to YOU to create a good life for you and your family, it is up to you to to have dreams that can be achieved, and not dream about thing that other have.
I think up to now you like to get thing into your hands....I don't think you have goals that can make a secure future....I think you expect to much out of life...that life will give you something because it is written in the Star...Your present status will I predict as a bit Naive...which hopefully will change if you change your attitude to understand that you are the most important part of YOUR LIFE....that is because we are ALIVE AS PERSONS AND NOT AS ROBOTS, which you also state...We are all unique ...grab it
Good luck!