((((((((((((((((Krystalkl)))))))))))
I just want to reach out and hug you right now.
Because other people will be reading this I will begin with explaining that dreams of the death of a loved one are not usually predictive, in fact its very unusual. Usually this would mean changes and a transition on the relationship.. new beginnings.
Krystal I believe this goes for you also, you were shown that his death wasnt the ending of the connection between you, but it has taken on another depth.
Dont over think this one, it will drive you nuts, and extra stress is the last thing you need right now. Its going to take a long long time getting used to living this new life without him being with you physically. Do know that he really is with you.
It seems you got a head start on this realization. Perhaps you got a heads up on it, and the message in advance because you would be so confused at the time of his passing and the months following that it would be too dark to see right then, when you need it the most, maybe someone was a habitual plan aheader.
This is saying is dead in the way we shallowly view it from our human perspective. But this doesnt mean hes gone and ceases to exist, this doesnt mean that he is not still with you, and you can communicate with him in your thoughts, and even receive his messages as signs from the universe ( the galaxy ), they wont be exactly as you imagine, ie a verbal communication , or exactly what you thing the answers must be.. but more subtle and encrypted. Messages that you would understand in your heart.. rainbows, feathers, finding little rocks that have pretty patterns.. most importantly, in the form of a memory and a realization that you feel in your heart.
dont over think this. accept it for the gift that it is.
Continue your conversations with Chris.. I would advise to keep these conversations between you and Chris for the peace and quite.. others may fear that you are not coping and accepting or being over the top.. Do be sure to keep on keeping on in your life, go forward.. if you dont feel that you are coping you should consider grief counselling.. going forward is not leaving him behind, have courage, he will be right there with you.
I hope this helps a little.
I know this is not an easy journey, I wish I could wave a magic want and make the pain go away.. remember the laughter.
Love to you..