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sweetsunray
Age: 35 Zodiac: 
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Posted: Thu Oct 29, 2009 3:43 pm |
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I would think this dirty scary looking man represents a part of you that you are scared of. We all have some personality traits or characteristics we don't like, or even are afraid of. We try to ignore they exist, push them away... but then they have the habbit to appear in waking life at the most inconvenient time and uncontrolled. We all must learn to love all aspects of ourselves, and not be scared of ourselves. When we love ourselves, even the bits we think are ugly, wrong, or scary, we can control ourselves and use those traits for something good.
Example... I can be stubborn. Sounds like an annoying characteristic. But if I'm in a situation where it's important to keep going, important not to let go... then my stubborness is a good trait. Likewise, some characteristics of yourself may be great things, but in some situations they will be "bad". Personality is neither good or bad. It becomes bad or good depending on how you use it.
So, the begger is a part of you that scares you, and a part that you ignored for a long time... that is why it is unkept, hungry, etc. And that part of you has now come to look for you in your dream, to find approval, to get help, to get food. It only wants your love and acceptance and shelter.
You mention how it scares your siblings. I wonder whether you recently had an outburst towards your siblings or other family that made them wonder who you changed into? That would be one of those aspects of yourself that you have tried to keep down and pretended as if it did not exist, only to have it appear uncontrolled because of emotion.
Hands are tools to communicate with. By holding the begger's hands, it's as if you are shutting him up. So, his (well your) words cannot hurt your family. But by giving him your hands, you also help this part of yourself... "helping hand".
Conclusions: I think you had some sort of fight with your siblings not so long ago, and they saw a part of you that tried to pretend did not exist. Not only did it scare your family, but it scared you too when it happened. But I also think you are now learning to accept this part of you as existing, and you are trying to find a way to make it into something less scary and perhaps useful in the future.
Hope that might solve your questions. All the best,
SSR
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