I was working full time and trying to provide these 2 little girls a safe home.  They were becoming very attached to my husband and I.  I felt exhausted and scared about the attachment and sent them to another foster home to get them reunited with their mother.  Once this happened we have kept in touch and moved to another state.  Their mother didn't get better and they are going to be adopted.  When they were sent to this other family-I had a dream the new foster mother was in my back yard covering up their footprints.  Any interpretation of this?  I still wake up with the 4 months we spent with them over taking my thoughts.  I feel blessed they were part of my life and at the same time like I failed them.  I am 40 and my husband has 2 children from past marraige 17 and 18 years.  I am struggling with the idea of parenthood, whether it is for me or not.  Is there anyone out there that can relate?  I am seeing lots of rainbows lately and white doves-which appeared when we had the girls.  i] [/i]

Hi Pambo,

I am not the expert. You need to post this in the dream section,
they have a lot of great helpers for you.

Just my thought, nothing special, you have the things you have to deal with,
but you also don't want to let them go. They are a big part of you and you
want what' the best for them.

In my opinion, you are alredy a great parent. You put their needs first.

You are a very special person, and you will do what is best for them and your situation.

Lots of hus and love to you.

Karlene

Thank you for your kind response.  I do have issues to deal with and through some research on rainbows and white doves they all lead to a meaning of peace and that is what I am starting feel.  Thank you again.