It is as though within your dreams or nightmares you are punishing yourself for some perceived failure, and because of the intensity of your negative feelings you have unintentionally programmed your subconscious mind to produce the impression of someone strangling you while you are awake.
Constant recurring nightmares always suggest that something fairly urgent needs to be faced and dealt with, and I believe that if your nightmares have got to the point of manifesting in your waking life (it was your own subconscious mind that caused these hand prints to appear, and not some evil spirit or entity who is attacking you).
I feel that that this indicates that you need urgent help from either a psychologist or professional counsellor in order to progressively but at the same time safely bring these underlying issues closer to the surface, where they can be much more easily dealt with. It is obvious from what you have told us that although our minds have incredible self healing powers of their own, that in your case some assistance from a qualified professional will be needed, so that you can finally get an uninterrupted night's sleep free of these terrible nightmares.
I believe that the psychosomatic (mind-body) mechanism involved in producing those red marks on your throat is very similar to the one which produces stigmata in people who are obsessively focussed on the virtues of their suffering as a sign of their strong religious faith.
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| Stigmata are bodily marks, sores, or sensations of pain in locations corresponding to the crucifixion wounds of Jesus. |
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Stigmata
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