Eye of Tiger and Angelique,
I haven't check this msg for a while but after being in such a stressful mode in the last 2 days, I must say that finding both of your replies had made my day to one more happier.
I might say this before and if I repeat it, please forgive me since this still is a painful memory, but during childhood, (5yrs old) I was what you might call a trance medium. I used to stared at people and tell them past, present and future. This behavior of mind used to embarrazed my mother so much that I can't remember how many times I got a series of serious wooping by my mother who thought that I was possesed by a demonic entity. Neverless all the times that she exhorzized me according to her. With years of bitting, I place my visions and perception or what you might say "talking to spirits" behind me. Now that I am 44 these experiences are coming to me at high speed and in the most unusual way, most of the time these experience are hard for me to understand or comprehem.
At the time, It was important for me, to do this connection with my spirit guide and having the confirmation that I was not necessarely dreaming, it's a plus for me. I must tell you, about the touch of the spirit hand, I felt every digital crease or texture of the hand and it was cold but not icy cold. It felt soft as rose petals. The love and tenderness I felt was overwhelming and after I realized that I was indeed holding a hand that was not mine, when I woke up I was literaly thrown into the bed to the point to bounce. Also, there was a strong smell of cinammon and honey in the bedroom afterworth.
I don't know the name of my spirit guardian and honestly its not important since in time I will know, I call her/him "jelly bean" although I don't eat jelly beans, I found them cute, different colors, tastes and seems that everyone likes them. So I named my spirit guide "Jelly Bean" I wish to know if I have to call her/him in another way, since I hope to God that I don't offend my spirit guide by given it such name. I just find it cute and sweet.

Thanks again for your replies it means alot to me
God Bless
Liz