| Evie wrote: |
Hello Evangeline :smt006 (((((( H U G S )))))
Your post has touched my heart in a big way hun. When I was your age
I lost my soul mate when he tragically drowned a couple of weeks before we were to
be married. Oh gosh that was half my life ago! I so recall the grieving process, and
'only' Eight months ago isn't very long... Thank you so much for sharing
this sorrow of yours with us.
My dreams went into another direction ... our relationship was only a year long and
all was great with us, but he ignored me in my dreams. He happily announced that he
had faked his death... I argued that I saw him in the casket and he turned away from me,
in favor of his other friends
These dreams were so devastating... he was not treating me like I was special anymore.
I watched from the background while he made nice nice with his friends.
Every dream was the same... the friends changed, but he barely acknowledged me.
I cried so much over these dreams.... One could remain in my mind for days after.
The drowning was an accident and it was easy to forgive him for stupidly doing this to himself.
But these dreams were something that he was doing to me on purpose and I felt so wounded.
Six years later I received a message via a gifted Medium that helped me to move forward.
He said I would find a marriage partner and he would celebrate that I was not alone. I really
wanted to be faithful to him, even after his death. A normal thing, but silly to carry this on
for years. I am sure that my man... 17 years now was helpfully directed to me...
Enjoy your dreams .... I don't think it is wishful thinking at all... no relationship is without
regrets hun. Please don't feel like you have to wait to die to be with him so you will be happy
again. You are so young, It would be a shame for you to think that you will not find true love
again.... You will. I am sure that 'soul-mate' is not exclusive to one person.
One more thing, I personally doubt that "marriage' as we know it here is happening in heaven,
but soul relationships do continue...
P E A C E
Evie
I understand your heart ache.... :smt007
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Evie, thanks for taking the time to respond to me.
your post really means a lot. Thank you for your kindness and sympathy.
It really does hurt. On top of it, my in-laws (some of his brothers, and one sister in law) have very much hurt me, being purposely hurtful.. friends of mine (or so I thought) for a long time. 15 years, for most of them. It really hurts feeling like I've been betrayed by and lost my family as well as feeling like my soul has been ripped apart with his leaving.
It's still unfinished and still makes me sick, and I just miss him so much. At least his mother and one brother are still acting with love.
Today is another holiday.. which always makes me miss him more, if that's even possible. I guess I have an easier time remembering specific things we did.
It's comforting that you were directed here and read my post.. being someone who has been through something similar. And your dreams must have made it so much worse. I am really sorry for your loss, too. I'm sure it wasn't easy. :( Especially being so sudden and unexpected. I just wish I could hear him. I wish I had control over when I could see him in my dreams or talk to him.
I doubt there is "marriage" as we know it there either, but I don't want him to prefer another person over me. Or what if he is somewhere there but I'm not able to find him.. I have so many fears and worries about that.
I just wish I could hear him better.
Of finding love again, yeah, maybe. nothing like this, I don't think, but that's expected, so I'm sure no one would believe it hearing it.
I don't think most people have EVER had as intimate relationship as we had/have?.. One of his aunts, who didn't like me much from what I can tell, said I am young and will get over it. She doesn't think it's such a big thing. I am angry about that. She has no idea. And maybe it was just careless, but it really seemed literally unlovingly careless. But she had no idea what we had, and she's an unhappy person.
We only had seven years. It seems like the blink of an eye, and at the same time a very long time. But not long enough, not nearly.
Nothing will make me happier (except knowing the people I care for are going to be with God also), than to finally be where he is and hopefully be allowed to always be with him there.
Thanks for listening... I just wanted to come back and say thank you for your thoughts and love.
Evangeline