ok so here goes. i had this dream that was very disturbing to me. i am curiousis to what it mean.

i was in the house my mother was killed in which is also the house i grew up in. i was in the front of the house in a little room with crystal(my stepsister whom i dont talk to anymore) and avery( my cousin on my moms side) and he was smoking a crack piipe and asked me to light it for him. so i reached over a picked up a sparker thing for a kerosene heater and was going to when all of a sudden i heard a loud *kaboom*. i walked down the halllway to the back of the house to see what it was. the back bedroom that tony (the man who raised me as his daughter and also the man who murdered my mother) had turned into a getaway for himslr had blown up. i could see outside. i walked to the bathroom and saw that about a foot around the toilet the floor was missing but the toilet was still standing. i walked out side where i saw tony pull up in the driveway. i went over to the car and he said get in we have to pick your mom up from work so i got in the drivers seat and preceeded to back out of the driveway when tony2 and lisa(uncke and his wife i no longer talk to) pulled up. they got out of the car and asked me what was going on cause they heard the noise from their house which was like 20 mile away. so i explained and then we wwalked around the side of the house to look at the damage. the trees were blown down and there were pieces of wood laying everywhere. then we walked inside to assess the damage more. i pointed out that there was a big crack that went all the way down the hallway. then we looked at the back room. i followed them to the bathroom where i pointed out that the toilet could still be used but you had to be careful.

this is where i woke up. i am curious is to what this means. [/code]

does anyone wanna guess. i need help to figure out why i had a dream this disturbing. i am sue it meant something i just dont know what.

Im going to give you what I think of this ............... not that I know dream meanings ..but the feelings I get from reading it!

1. The toilet - is showing you your life is in the shitter!

You need to make changes - these people are not family nor friends ..........just like the house your life can be destroyed by the actions around you.

Crack- is known for blowing up ........maybe the lab was under your hour or in the bathroom??? I dont know

I think you need to look ahead and get away from the past .....move forward ............your young ..use your energy forsomething good in this life ........

well...honestly i know my life is in the shitter.. so now that i said that i have a questiion for you.....what do you mean by the lab? do you mean like a crack lab? that makes sense. a friend told me that she thinks it mean that i have hatred towards him and want him to pay for what he has done yet i feel bad for feeling this way. that also sounds about right to me except for the part about feeling bad. i know he should pay and he will. he is going to jail for the rest of his life. hmmm....

Dream Interpretation isnt an easy task .. and can be interpreted in various ways .. not necessarily true.

But from all what you said, its evident that you are still a little traumatised by the incident and havent fully moved on. The indications that you were at the same house, and with perhaps people you considered family or held certain levels of trust being present, would probably mean something close and personal which has resulted you building a wall around you.

The blowing up of the place and the toilet still standing - I dont know exactly what it could mean. But, its evident what ever happened isnt forgotten or forgiven - both are necessaties for going forward.

You may try the Psychic Forum, there are some good points on meditation - try that with some self introspection. (Quote : Where there is a question there also lies the answer. - so its evident you hold the answer to your question as well)

Good Luck