| ScorpioBoar wrote: |
| lol I figured I am just going through depression like anybody else going through a breakup. I am just trying to find a way to make it a little easier. This pain is just too much. I know I have to endure it. |
i know exactly how you feel. i have gone thru it myself. and like you i treid all the tricks like drinking and shutting myself in the room and even going to doc saying i need pills for sleep and depression...
oh! it was hard. but time is best healer. i meditate almost everyday now. and i use my own form of meditation. which is taking any object and trying to look at it from all angles, taste, smell, feel, the good thing about it, bad thing about it... what it could have taken to make it etc.
today the object the object that caught the fancy was a small stuffed toy (a teddy). at first i could not make why had i choosen this object today. when i was meditating on it... it bought a big smile on my face becuase it made me remember a few things related to it, which in the day to day stressed out day is not important. yet when you think about small things that give you pleasure .... these are the small things that count.
it made me think of how i won that teddy bear for my wife. and how i had run away by myself to get some space and time to think. it made me think of my ex-gf (for whom i drank and took pills) and who had gifted me a big stuffed toy (a dog - really fluffy and cute).
it made me think of a time when i went to this video game palour where i took my niece and won a jackpot in some stupid hen and egg catching game.
Look for the bare necessities
The simple bare necessities
Forget about your worries and your strife
I mean the bare necessities
Old Mother Nature's recipes
That brings the bare necessities of life
The bare necessities of life will come to you
They'll come to you!
Look for the bare necessities
The simple bare necessities
Forget about your worries and your strife
I mean the bare necessities
That's why a bear can rest at ease
With just the bare necessities of life
Now when you pick a pawpaw
Or a prickly pear
And you prick a raw paw
Next time beware
Don't pick the prickly pear by the paw
When you pick a pear
Try to use the claw
But you don't need to use the claw
When you pick a pear of the big pawpaw
Have I given you a clue ?
The bare necessities of life will come to you
They'll come to you!
however, now i know another reason for picking up that toy. YOU. faith and the stars conspired for us to meet here today. so we could share these thought. and i am happy to have meet you. i am sure we can be good friends
Regards,
Abhishek