Thanks Crow

Checked out that color site, and this is what I was getting,  I have always seen purple or voliet, and it was always pleasent. I can visualize other colors but, the purple or violet was always the one especially with third eye.
I have been doing some yoga pratices for some 35 years which are suppose to open the Crown Chakra, or as they call the Aperture of Brahma. This exercise would all so cause lucid dream , and out of body experience.

I was't sure what to expect from, kundalina but from what I undrstood it was the transmuting of sexural energy , I don't pratice trantric but I don't chase that either. What ever this was it seemed to be total sexural energy, I just don't under stand the purple, I pray to the Devine Mother to help me everyday, and I don't fool around in my lucid dreams, though I could . But just about everynight I gain that knowing only to for get most of in morning.

I read most of Kundalini Rising , but that seemed like levels of awarness as you traveled thru the different level of the Chakra.

Googleplex,

I do not understand most of those texts written.  Yet here I am slowly progressing.  So don't be discouraged by thinking it will or should go according to what it says in a book.  We all have our own seperate experiences.  Each will have their own version of how it feels.  But usually there is something that links it all together.  Something found in all people.  

More than anything I believe that the knowledge is inside us all, while we look outward for the confirmations....the answer is inside us.  The more we practice linking up with our spirit, the more we become alined. The more we practice the balance, the more we become aware in the waking state.  Meaning not so dependent on the dreams. Although they still come.  Even if we do not remember exactly what we had dreamed about, our spirit and subconsious made contact.  There is that seed waiting to bloom.  Deep within.  Slowly there will be the feeling as if all is as it should be.  A peace I cannot describe.  Now when this gets distubed, we re-aline, re-balance...and then continue on our path.  Again I cannot find the words to really describe it since I do not retain the proper names for all this.  

As to if the kundalina transmitting sexual energy...that I am not sure about.  But I do know that it can be awoken during a certain ritual practice. Since this is a Family Friendly site I will not go further. ;)

Perhaps you are caught up in the purple. You stated it was running down your spine, but stopped at the throat.  Why do you think it stopped there?  Why was it moving freely about in the lower chakras?   For 35 years you try to open your crown chakra...what if that crown was already opened but not able to connect to other parts?  Are they ever really closed?  

These are questions I asked myself.

And what if our Guardian is just our higher self?  That if we were our own teacher in the end....sorry I got carried away.  Just a deep thinker like that.

Safe Journey

Crow

What I was refering to was the transmuting of the sexural energy into Kundalini, in the Tantric is the White, Gray and Black. From what I have read work in any other than the White would be self serving. The Black Magicians, use the transmuting effect of the sexual of the Kundalini in a more self serving way, in turn cause them self to plunge into the lower levels of the Chakra's. From my reading there is at least three lower levels than the root. Working in these levels are not on the correct path, but those that master this can seem to be quite powerful, and perform miracles or to seem to.

Paramahansa Yogananda was said to have been kept from becoming, Bodhisattva because he failed to attain what ever Tantric levels were said he did not. In the Tantric it takes two, to complete each other, for me I plan this to be my last trip, I can already see far beyond this place. It would be my wish to become Bodhisattva, but as you said something is holding me back, and that is probably giving up the last vestige of materalism.

In saying I would like to attain Bodhisattva, that is not saying I would want to return.

Googleplex,

Handsdown your intellectual level is further than mine. But I will try to converse. Thank you for humoring me with your patience.

Tantric-Is that like when you are drunk without a drop of liqour, yet alert to all around...floating above, feeling whole and at home?  Not aware of time, or things around you...just two spirits intwined?  Or is it like those times where you feel like you have been slingshot, kiss of heaven, energized, seeing things through the shrowd, returning refreshed and renewed?  Sorry-Just do not read things like this.  All this I just do, again without knowing why.  I do not retain terms.  But I have found that one can do this without a partner.  While one lasts for a short while, the other's effect will last much longer.  Is this what you mean by transmitting that type of energy into the Kundalini?

Is there a differance between dark and light?  Always thought it was the way it was to applied by the magician.  Not sure if they work with the lower chakras alone.  Seeing that they can achieve so much in their growth, yet sometimes they get lost within.  The power is intense.

I thought that in order to know the all, we must know both.  Walk the middle so to speak...the balance.  That way not limiting our selves.  I am good while I am very evil. Having to learn that I am both, embracing my true spirit.  The good, as well as the bad.  Forgiveness started with self.  Love started with me.  Once I figured this lesson, things started to improve greatly.  How I choose to apply it deepens on my own free will.

As to giving up materalism, what do you mean?  Is that when you know all will provide?  Or do we join a convent and donate all our possessions?  In that I am a bit confused.  In my heart I think it is take what we need, give what we can.  There is no need to worry about material, all is as it should be.  When I need something, it materilizes.  Sometimes when I think I need something, and I don't...it will not.  At first that upset me, until later when I found out the reasons.  In everything there was a lesson.  My last trip is that of a very spiritual journey.  I do not know of this Bodhisattva that you speak of.  I'll go and read up on it when I have more time.  And then again not sure if I will understand or retain anything I read on it.  I was and always will be just another scatter brain.

It sounds like you are very close to achieving what you want. That this will be your last trip.  How exciting is that?  I am very happy for you!!!

Sometimes when we look too closly at the forest we do not see the tree.  Lost within what we expect, instead of just letting ourselves move about freely.  Pushing at a door when all we need to do is let it automaticly open.  I only say that because that always tripped me up.   I was so disheartened by those intellectual fellows such as yourself.  Feeling I would never achieve such feats.  Yet here I am.  Knowing stuff I should not know, affermations that spirit retains.  So have you tried to talk to your spirit while awake?  Instead of just in dreams?  Letting it guide you to your truth...maybe you have. I wouldn't be surprised.  You are really advanced Googleplex.  A couple of years ago I would've been too shy to even write to such a person.  Thank you for sharing all the terms and giving definitions to what I couldn't explain.  And for your patience with this youngin'.  I still have so much to learn.  

Safe Journey

Crow

I am not any different am also on path, I have been gifted with seeing first hand some of the real magic in the world, but alas I am like the prodigal son.

In the book Kundalini Rising they speak of if attaining the level of relization of working in highest Chakra it would be hard to even cogitate this existance.

I was once  accidentally thurst into what I call the center of the cyclone, while in this place my mind, if that is what you would call it was so far from earth, I thought, I would never be able to return. Some how their were other people there, they must of been on a higer level than I, and were able to bring me back to the earth plane.

Once you grasp the Truth all other things fall away